That’s tearing me apart?
Some strange, deranged expression
Of what’s in my heart…
Today:
April 22, 1999
Time: 2:30 a.m.
So, you may be thinking, it’s 2:30 a.m., what am I doing on the computer?? Well, I had my last exam last night (YAHOO!!!), so Laurie and I went out to karaoke with the Little Shop people, and we just walked home and decided to stop in the computer lab for a minute. So I think Laurie’s already kinda bored, so I’ll have to make this short.
I can’t explain what a relief it is to be done school for this year! I only have one year left and I’m done forever!!!! That’s such a great feeling, but also a little scary. I have no idea what I’m doing once I’m done. I hope that this Livent thing will not only give me helpful experience, but also the confidence that I’ll need to go places in the media business. Right now I have a really short supply of that. 🙂
I am *so* excited about New York. Wow. I just can’t even put it into words. Things keep changing, but now it looks like I’ll be leaving May 2. Livent is workshopping a new show, and they wanted someone to help out, so I got asked! Could there possibly be anything more exciting??? 🙂 It just sounds amazing, and I know that the whole summer is going to be full of equally amazing experiences.
Kind of unrelated, but sort of not…I’ve been getting rather depressed lately about some of my friendships. There are several people that I used to be really close to, and now I’m not…usually because they’ve become closer with someone else. I can’t help wondering if I’ve done something, or if the fact that I’m so busy has pushed them away, or if they just decided they don’t like me at all. I don’t know. It’s such a terrible feeling. I used to want to be liked by everyone, and even though I know that’s not possible, it still makes me sad when people that I used to think I meant something to don’t really need/want to be around me anymore.
Well, that was a rather depressing thought for so late/early in the morning. I think maybe I ought to go to sleep before I start getting too philosophical. I’ll be spending the next week and a half working and getting ready to move, so I don’t know how much I’ll be on here…try not to miss me too much! 🙂